A blog about my life, my likes, and my crocheting/web designing

Time for that bubble..

So much family drama going on! I could totally use that privacy bubble that Dr Cox uses on an episode of Scrubs. My mom and brother are embroiled in a feud and I have received some of the shrapnel. 

In other news, my hubby’s grandma came over today to take me shopping for things we needed for the baby shower we are throwing for my hubby’s cousin. It’s getting close and I’m getting excited. I just hope that the party lives up to mine and grandma’s expectations. I’m hoping for a fun day where the mommy to be can relax and feel the love.  I keep forgetting what day it is though and stressing. Myself out thinking I have no time to get anything done. Lol. I think that’s a symptom of the shrapnel. Hahaha. 

This evening the family sat down and we watched Pan together. It was a cute movie. I can see why some people didn’t care for it, but it wasn’t bad. It was nice to see a movie about a different part of Peter Pan’s life.  

So after the rocky start to the day where I wanted to just crawl into a little protective bubble, it did start to be a good day. Now it’s time for some winding down and sleep. Tomorrow will be another long day filled with things to do and craziness. Yet I’m sure it will be a good day. Every day where you open your eyes and are able to spend time with the ones you love is a good day.

Happy crafting everyone. 

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Craft show blues

I almost forgot! The craft show I worked hard for recently went okay, but not as well as I had hoped.  It was a slow day and there were a lot of lookyloos.  I did make a little profit though, so the day wasn’t a total loss.  The big seller was my tooth fairy pillows.  People loved them!  They are a pretty fun idea.  They have a ribbon to hang them on the bedroom door so that the tooth isn’t hidden under the pillow and is more easily found.  I will be making more for the next show coming up at the end of April. I hope they sell just as well at this next one.  It will be at a library, so I want to make a bunch of bookmarks as well.  Those should hopefully sell there.  The up side of not selling too much at this last show is that I had a lot of stuff to add at the consignment shop where I have a nice big shelving unit with my stuff in it.  With Easter coming up, I’m hoping that people buy a lot of the stuffed animals I made for in baskets.  We shall see.

I do admit that I am disappointed with how the last show went, but my hubby is one of my biggest supporters and was like, look, there are a few more shows coming up.  It really warms my heart that he is so supportive of me and my hobby.

So time to shake off the lack of success from the last show and look forward to the next.  You have to think positive.  Happy Crafting!

A while ago, I was diagnosed with high anxiety.  Be it from my childhood growing up or the various hard times I had through my teens and early 20’s, this has helped me deal with it some.  Knowing what is terrorizing you in the middle of the night and keeping you from sleep, or making you stay at home in your comfy pajamas and avoiding those parties or invites to the bars from your friends, makes it easier to handle and get past.  After some blood work, I found out my vitamin D was low, which can aggravate anxiety and depression.  I started taking vitamin D supplements and I really can tell the difference.  I’ve also purchased and have been gifted some wonderful adult coloring books by Johanna Basford.  If you haven’t heard of them or seen them in the stores, go look for them!  They are wonderful.  It really does help to relieve stress when you’re having a bad day.  Crocheting also helps me with the day to day anxiety and stress.  Making something beautiful can distract anyone from sad thoughts or thoughts that you aren’t good enough.  I keep avoiding the other activity that my therapist informed me will help as well.  Exercise.  I’m a stay at home mom.  By the time I feed and care for the kids and my husband, take care of things around the house, plus trying to start potty training our almost 3 year old, there isn’t a whole lot of time for exercise, let alone sleep or fun like when I was younger.  I know that I need to start.  Losing those extra pounds I’ve been carrying around since having my son almost 3 years ago would be a big self esteem boost for me.  Not that I’m overweight or anything, but I used to be in so much better shape.  I keep telling myself that I’ll start after this holiday, or after this week, or maybe tomorrow, yet I don’t have the self discipline needed to do it on my own.  We only have one vehicle, so it’s hard to try and meet people at the gym.  I could go on with the list of excuses that I have as to why I haven’t started working out like I know I should, but I just don’t want to.  It’s hard and I didn’t have a good example growing up of taking care of my body.

Anxiety is something that not a lot of people care to know about or actually acknowledge as an actual disease, so not many people have sympathy for those who go through it.  It can be debilitating at times, but when you get yourself checked out and actually go through the steps to help manage it, anxiety doesn’t have to be something that keeps you from living your life.  It also helps to have a partner who supports you and tries to help you when they are able.  My husband works around 13 hours a day around 4-5 days a week and the days he is off are also rather busy in our house, so he helps when he is able.  We are slowly learning and getting this marriage thing down.  The support is always there though.

I am writing about this today because this morning, I was having a really bad anxiety day.  A little nap while my son was napping, some coloring and some sunshine have helped a lot since this morning.  Every time you experience a bad day, it makes you think about the good days and value them more.  You stop and go through all the different tools you have to battle the invisible monster attacking you and slowly move through them until you find the one that works that day.  Could I use a longer nap? Probably, but for now, I’m ok.  One thing you learn as a mother is that you don’t take as much care of yourself as you do the others in the house.  It shouldn’t be that way, but it is.  The hubby is pretty good about keeping me in check on that, but I slip on that one a good bit anyways.  What mother doesn’t though?

Now it’s off to dinner making, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, homework and other odd jobs around the house until bedtime.  Remember to take care of yourself while you are taking care of your loved ones.  You are important too!

So I was up until about 1:30 am this morning weaving in ends on different things. I wake up a few times in the morning to get my hubby’s lunch ready for work and then to put my daughter on the bus. My son decided to get up early as well so mommy couldn’t get any extra sleep this morning.  This leads to a grumpy mommy. Which is not good for today. Way too much to do. More weaving in of ends, cleaning up the house, dinner with my grandma for her birthday…too much to do to be a grumpy Gus today. I will push through though, and hopefully this bad mood fades away and the day can turn around. 

Off to sew in a million more loose ends. 😬 

So far today, I have managed to weave in ends on a multitude of items. I still have a good bit left to go, but after today I feel somewhat confident I will have a good many things ready for this show. I just keep hoping and praying that it goes well and my friend and I sell a lot of stuff. 

Look how cute these bunnies are!

  

Craft Show Jitters 

My next craft show is this coming Saturday. I have so many crocheted projects that just need to be sewn together or finished in some way. I’m starting to get nervous and scared that I won’t get it all done. Yet I am putting off getting up out of bed and starting my day. I have an almost 3 year old to run after all day, an 11 year old at school and my hubby doesn’t have a day off until Friday. I’m sure that I will get enough done and ready for the show, but I always work myself up and worry that I’ll never make it. This bed feels so cozy and the blankets are so warm. And my son is still asleep. 

Maybe just a few more minutes…

Craft show blues

So yesterday was the craft show I’ve been looking forward to for the past few months. I was excited and expected to do well. I didn’t sell much and was pretty disappointed. There were a lot more crochet booths this year but the part that upset me the most was this older lady who was selling hats like mine for $10. A lot of you may not understand, but that is too low a price for a handmade hat like ours.  

 
These hats are ones I sell at around $18-$20. They take a lot of time and materials and they are definitely worth it. 

A few parts of the show were really nice though. It was held to help support the local football team. So the team members were there to help. I made some football ear warmers and gave one to one of the players. He absolutely loved it 🙂 kept coming over and asked me how I made my stuff and how much he loved his ear warmer. 🙂   He even made sure to come help me and my husband carry stuff out to the car. Kids are still being raised right and I am so happy to have given that to such an appreciative kid. Then as I was out waiting with a final few things while my husband ran stuff to the car, there was a cute little girl who was waiting with her mother for their car to pull up. I asked if she liked princesses and gave her one of the princess lovey blankets I make. Her mother was shocked that I’d give it to her to keep and sounded like she was on the verge of tears and told her friend to give me a pumpkin roll.  They had been a vender there as well and sold them at the show. My husband said to me at the car, “The smile on your face right now”. And it was big, because I just love making people happy. So even though I didn’t do as well as I had hoped, I’m still proud of my crafts and that I was able to make people happy. My husband kept telling me how proud he was of me too, which made it worth it as well. It’s so amazing to know that the person you love supports you so much.